What can I do? This is a question that everyone comes face to face with at one point or the other. We always think I’m one person what can I do that will make a difference. I know that for some people it seems too big of a task but if you change something in your life every day you can become someone you want to be. For example: I would like to become more educated on the world, so I decided I would do some research on why we are overseas in other countries. Are we really helping? Or just creating more conflict? I found I became ignorant to politics and what people really stand for and gave up on doing the research. We only see what the press produces for a story. As the years go on you realize everything is not true.
I’ve always thought this in my life well not only because I feel empowered but because I have no idea what I want to do with my life. It’s not only that I don’t know what do as in a career but in everyday life I just wake up well roll out of bed. Get ready for work and come home and realize how many bills I must pay and how dirty my space is then just fall asleep. This cycle repeats until I have moments like this and am like come on you need to get up and do something with your life. I struggle with depression as well so sometimes it’s hard to get myself moving but I need to stop using that as an excuse. I will have to say I’m a step by step kind of person I could never see the big picture with anything.
So hopefully I can make a routine and slowly add something every day to get to place I want to be in my life. That’s one thing I need to learn is to stop wanting to get to the finish line and be the turtle not the hare. I am defiantly one of the people who like instant gratification as well as many others I feel it’s one of those lovely human traits.
I want to explore my life and enjoy the life I live and not think of it as the life I’m not living. If you think as your life of what you haven’t done or experienced, you may never get to the point of those moments or adventured dreaming of as a child. I know it’s hard to look life as the now in this moment what can I do to better myself. I’m still not at this point I’m trying to get there with every aspect of my life.
I need to do some soul searching. Really figure out what I want in life and who I want to become. Then slowly make steps into becoming that person and bettering myself. The only way I believe I can achieve these goals is to put myself out of my comfort zone.